the american dream

i believe we have been deeply programmed to accomplish things in life.
we set expectations on ourselves and check off the boxes ..one by one without TUNING in to our hearts.

is this me? what would bring me joy? do i really want this? what are my beliefs around marriage? family? parenting? work...you name it.

a friend said to me the other day that she no longer and hang with people who are not choosing to be awake.

i understand this. more and more iam seeing how the robotic in nature society we are creating as a whole and how many people are stopping to say "this is not me"
it takes something to wake us up. or maybe slowly we continue to realize because our bodies ache, or we are getting "sign" from other areas of our lives that are saying
"you are not a part of this choice....wake up!"

i could speak for hours on this topic...it is a BIG part of why i am here- for play is truly living AWAKE. not going day by day doing things out of habit- doing things to follow the system...

when my husband told me he wanted someone to be a "wife" to him i knew what he meant. he has his own programming about what a wife and mom do. he witnessed the roles as a child and sees every day how the world continues to use the "one size fits all" paradigm.

truth is, i did do this. i went to the barbeques with my husband, i wore the nice outfits, laughed at the jokes, let me husband watch football while i cleaned up in the kitchen. i DID this ...and it felt gross.
why?
because iwas acting.
i was being something to fit in, to MAKE it work....to finally be accepted.

all in all dying on the inside. not even knowing what brought me joy at this point....so so far removed from ME.

i am writing about this more and more because when i amin the world, and speaking in front of people THIS is what comes up.

i know my husband is trying to accomplish something. this "something" is keeping him away from himself.
he feels as if he gets the home, the wife, and the kid that THEN all will be well.
but NONE of this is peace.

we only find our peace when we go within. when we KNOW who we are and do not NEED outside things to "make us happy"

the american dream is not real. what is real is us finally becoming awake to our own magnificence and living our own lives.
this may mean a house, kid and partner, but the DIFFERENCE is you are CHOOSING this because it is a divine expression of YOU.

i remember being at those barbeques and gatherings with my husband and all the men would talk about would be how much their wives "demand of them"
and then in the kitchen the women would bitch about "how little their husband do"
it is not a new story.
but it is a boring one. and one that is not serving ANYONE, especially our children.

what if we all sat down and said
"all i desire for you is for you to be yourself. i do not wish to place you in a box or demand thigns from you from my own limited perceptions, i want you to fully express yourself"

for wanting THIS From others means you are wanting THIS From yourself.
it is a full circle.
when our time is spent celebrating, seeing and accepting....magic happens.
when we all gather in this energy- play is alive.